Loving a Killer

I felt trapped in the basement

It was cold and dark no light to be seen

My love for you is asphyxiating

This endless cycle of loving you and hating you

I can’t stand it anymore

I hate to hate you and I hate to love you

You’re personality drives me to a deep

Insanity in which I wish to escape

I see beauty, I see evil

Somehow I just can’t let go of you

I’m slowly becoming you and it’s eating me alive

You say “I suffer” yet your eyes tell

Another story

You seem to hate me

Yet you seem to love having me around

Or should I say hanging?

Well I am hanging

Hanging from a rope made of pure self-hatred and despair

Then yet you give me a small smile

It gives me hope for us

Is there an us in your killer mind?

Then I realize all this pain, was

Your way of molding me....into you

Tell me is this what you imagined?

Did you want me to become a killer like you?

Aren't you afraid of yourself?

Will you be afraid of me?